What is it? This feeling of powerlessness. Like I have absolutely no control over what is happening in my life. As if I'm am a spectator of my own body. Words fly out of my mouth without me even realizing what I am saying only till it's already said and too late to take back. … Continue reading The Puppet
Growing up is hard. No one ever truly prepares you for the journey that is to come, the responsibilities that follow. The struggle is real and as you get older you find that the world grows colder. People stop considering you, thinking of your well-being. You realize life isn't what you'd thought it'd be at … Continue reading When it’s too late..
This seems to be where I am currently finding myself lately. Sometimes sorry doesn't mean we're cool or that everything is now back to the way they once were. It doesn't even mean I like you again or trust you. Sometimes people apologize for the love of someone else, for the sake of doing what … Continue reading The “apology”
Sometimes I feel like this life I'm living isn't real. It feels like a dream that I'm in and nothing I'm looking at is really there. It almost feels like an out-of-body experience, like everyone is involved in the skit and I'm the only one who doesn't know it. I have these moments of realization … Continue reading Random Thoughts….
Just a little something I came up with.. I was given this topic "He hadn't seen her since High School" and this is what I managed to come up with in a short amount of time. Curious about how she had changed. He searched for her. Married and 2 kids, he found her. Even … Continue reading Poem
I never had an older sister. No one to guide me through lifes toughest moments. No one ever taught me how to be an older sibling..Everyone was too busy dealing with life, and that's ok. I know now that's a real thing. No one ever warns you that once that 18th year rolls around life … Continue reading A Promise
September, two weeks before my sixth birthday and I'm at my fathers funeral. Alone, quiet and withdrawn from everyone in a corner. Why me? Have I done something wrong? Did I ask for too many things? Unable to truly grasp the intensity of what has actually happened, til later on down the road, all I can … Continue reading Daddy
God do you hear me? Am I coming in clear? I don't get how all my experiences could have possibly lead me here.. I don't understand, How could all I've been through be part of a grand master plan? Could it be that maybe someone needed me more than I did when I was lost? … Continue reading A Time in my Life When…
So many times we look back at yesterday and think of all the things we didn't do, stuff we should have said. We worry about problems that came up and weren't solved right away. We over analyze every single thing that happened yesterday. Words that were spoken that hurt our feelings or maybe even our … Continue reading Yesterday
I see you there, happy and personable. You show love I never saw, you say things I never heard. Sisters...? You told people we were sisters....!? We were more like strangers and now we aren't even aware of each others existence. I gave you so much of me, I tried so hard with you. I … Continue reading A distant memory…